You make me smile, please stay for a while...

Warm weather has most definitely faded. I took another 4 hour nap after I got off work today. It was on accident... sort of. I like to lay down when I have nothing else to do (even though I need to clean), but I never intened on it being for more than an hour. Anyway, I've been having these horrifying dreams that seem so real to me. In my one today I got held at gunpoint and my car was stolen, leaving me deserted in the middle of a city where I gotheld up again. So I went and bought a gun. Me. It seemed so logical. A gun and me, in my dream... it made sense. I woke up sweating and crying. I hate these dreams. They've been happening more often. I'm wondering if it's not from all the media exposure involving shootings lately.

Fall break ends tomorrow and I'm very disconcerted about it. This break has been nice for me to just collect my thoughts. I like that I haven't been so rushed in the mornings. I worry myself too much. I think about things that have little relevance in the scheme of things and I squander time away this way. Where did I get that from? I'm a complete mess but I never seem to understand that if I'd gather myself up I wouldn't have to be constantly worrying about things. Will I ever get it?

Bedtime. I have a full day of painting ahead of me.