My heart knows me better than I know myself, so I'm gonna let it do all the talking...
Simply put, I wish I could crawl back into my mother's womb and stay there for 9 months, completely dependent on someone else. Quite frankly, this independence thing is HARDER than I thought. The time has come for me to be the woman I was destined to be. To be the one who stands defiant when everyone else is throwing stones harder than I ever imagined. Where do you go when you feel like absolutely everyone you thought was your friend has managed to turn against you?
I will be completely honest. Last night was an all time LOW. I have evidence now that people hate me, and for what I just don't know. I have recently acquired a backbone and refuse to let people step their filthy traitor feet on me... perhaps that's it. I will admit, I do have a few amazing friends left, friends I wouldn't trade in for anything, but as for the other, they could disappear from my life and it would be OKAY. I would rather have 5 truer than life friends than 20 bitches who hush their voices when I walk in a room. If I don't like you, I won't pretend to like you anymore, unlike the others who give their insincere smiles that I want to slap of their faces. So seriously, get over yourselves. You don't walk on water. You're not princesses. NOT EVERYONE LIKES YOU.
Go ahead and call me selfish, because maybe I am. Maybe it's time I start looking out for my interests so I don't get hurt like this over and over and over again. Good luck in the real world, it'll be fun to see you ALL get knocked off of your high horses.
Okay, just had to get that out of system.
3 comments:
I still love you eva, and Always will wonderful sister~
Diva.
Eva Liz! I <3 you TONS! And I know you know you know that! We will always be wonderful friends and i'm here whenever you need me! We will be neighbors our whole life (at least I hope) and I want you to know that i'm always here for ya no matter what!!
I love you!!
~Kimmy~
Eva-
The first thing you need to focus on is that NOT EVERYONE IS GOING TO LIKE YOU. And you know what? You might not ever find out why.
You remind me of me when I was your age. I used to mull over those silences when I walked in the room. I used to butter up to those girls. I used to WANT to be friends. I had even confronted some of 'those girls' to ask them what their 'beef' with me was...to no avail.
I know it hurts. I know you want an explanation.
There's not one.
You are ALWAYS going to brush shoulders with 'those types of people'. The best advice I could give you is to hold your head high, don't over-analyze and tell yourself that more often than not: THEY ARE THE ONES WITH THE ISSUES. I think it all boils down to jealousy.
You will find people that you just *click* with. It shouldn't be that hard.
Kiss those bitches goodbye!
By the way, your mom and your sister are two of the coolest women I've ever met...so I know it's in your genes. Don't let the little things drag you down. You have bigger fish to fry my dear.
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