Goin' the seashore, doesn't matter anymore...

I am thankful...

for a warm place to rest my tired body after a long day
for music that reaches into my feelings and forces introspection
for surroundings that enable my self expressions
for living in a place where i can see the stars most nights
for being able to laugh heartily with my loved ones
for my paint brushes
for my favorite books that i've read many times
for forgiveness

I wish...

you would reconsider
winter would pass quickly
all the continents were connected
i were a more organized person
sadness wasn't so predominent here
i could talk to you one last time, i wonder what i'd say
there were no such thing as secrets
i rememered my lost loved ones, it's becoming cloudy with every day

I need...

more attainable aspirations
a major dose of solitude so I can really begin to appreciate things
to know you're okay, i'm freaking out because i haven't heard anything in months
to learn my weaknesses

I have learned...

the ins and outs of self-doubt
that no matter what, you never disappoint me
that forgiveness can be humbling
to embrace all of life's quirks
that anger doesn't get one very far
that the best way to live is to wait for others to harvest what they want and to glean what's left over
that my favorite people in the world are the least like me
that selfishness is the most destructive quality to have
time is an illusion, we've made it up because we have no way other way to explain it
that life and death are the same thing
to fear you when your sadness has taken over
some people are just mean, plain and simply.